sharon's new home~

Life? Life is certainly uncontrollable.
This is not really my belief until I did experience it.

All the memories suddenly emerge in my brain. I see myself
standing in the university campus, ready to step out and
embrace my dreams. But afterwards, I found things were so different
from what I had thought them would be.

I'm not here to complain. C'est la vie! Prend bon cote de la vie!
After all these years, I finally convinced myself to settle down.
I've convinced myself not to think about studying abroad and all those
dream persuing things. But now it's like a joke. When I start learning
to appreciate my "steady" life, I am forced to move on again.

As a Capricorn like me (although an Aquarius most of the time), I still
find it difficult to adjust myself to the new challenges.

When I bought my first car, I've decided to really devote myself in my future.
But then, I sold it in no time just because I had to switch my direction to
another field. And then, I bought another. Ironically, I had to sell it again
now since it will be no use keeping my car here in Taiwan while I'll be off
to the states.

Everybody gives their thumbs up about my going to the states. I'm sure they
definitely don't know what it is like. I guess it is like driving in the
worng direction, which makes you feel scared and dangerous. You may think it's
hilarious to put it this way. But as for me, taking the steeling wheel is like
taking control of my life because I can seem to go anywhere I want. It is just
I'm always driving in the wrong direction, aimless. I am scared, helpless and
sometimes desperate.

If you want to ask me what I want for life now, the only answer that comes up
in my mind is "Je ne sais pas." Maybe just take it slow.

Sharon (now being moody...)